Confused

i am scared guys. so confused. me and Pickuptruck are really talking about our relationship and we may or not continue our relationship. Its so difficult but when we dont talk about things we are so happy.

Hopefully a new start...

Okay..so why did I not know that Napoleon past on to the next life where he was greeted with 40 virgin betas? bleh.... Who will watch my slinky post its now?

Okay so being here without you guys is makes me feel like the watermelon we hollowed out that one time and tricked everyone to thinking it was just cut up when we made cocktail with MightyMouse in mundo.

Its just not the same without us all together.

Eu-oprah (someone help me give her a name)is moving in tomorrow.

I am on a major haul trying to sell all my books online.

Also, I finally got my grades. A+, B+,B+, and sigh... B. My classes were hard and I procrastinated. I have to make a better balance between Pickuptruck ( u kno :-) )and school. That was ultimately my downfall. I have to stop using Carpe diem as an excuse.

I miss living with you guys so much. So senior year, the four of us right??

Okay so we need to buy tickets for Phantom soon. I should paint half my face white.

Work sucks but i am getting lots of hours so lots of money. Atleast I have Euoprah, jukebox and what do we call ManOverBoard's other half? grassyballs? haha HornedRimmed (glasses) we must choose a name).

lately I have been obsessed with mortal combat-deception..I know right? lol.

Anyone up for a roadtrip b4 we all graudate.

....here's to the most scattered brain blog thus far! :-)

-scribbles.

Catching Up

I don't know how everyone else's summer is going but mine if fine and dandy. There are just a few things that are taking me a while to get used to, and I believe college has spoiled me for life and so I will never fully adjust to living at home again.

Item 1: Apparently, my sister and her husband now practically live at our house. And while this means that they're fixing up broken things and buying us food, it's also 4 times as much work to keep the house clean, even less space for all our stuff, the washing machine is always being used, and lately, if dinner isn't adequate, twice as many dishes.

Item 2: I got way too used to having my own room, with all the included perks that I didn't notice until I came back. These included my own drawers, a closet, a bed, a place for my books, my own towel, and a place for my toothbrush, to name a few.

Item 3: Our kitchen has been completely rearranged. I have no idea where to find pots and pans for cooking, half of our dishes have been thrown away, a cupboard that used to be full of tupperware is now full of food...it's enough to drive me crazy.

Item 4: Did I mention I have no way to organize my clothes? I look like a hobo because I can't find anything I'm looking for.

Besides all the little stuff, I am loving being back home. It's funny to think that I hated all the time I spent alone at school, and now that I am home I cherish every moment I can be by myself, which sadly does not occur very often. I took a shower today, during which people kept walking in and out of the bathroom because they needed things. Ah well, I should enjoy this while I can. Summer goes fast.

So Jukebox, N.C.N, how are you gals doing?

Ethics and Morality

I just finished reading A Clockwork Orange. It was one of those books that leaves you thinking, "Wow." The big moral issue in the story surrounds the idea of when a human ceases to be human being. A person that blindly does evil cannot be human. Yet, if good is imposed on someone, they become nothing more than a clockwork orange. That is, they are seemingly "alive" and "juicy", but they are nothing more than machines on the inside. It's the ability to choose between right and wrong that ultimately makes you human.

Also, I think Stanley Kubrick is a crazy man for having made that book into a movie. If I were Anthony Burgess, I'd be pissed at him, too. HAHA.


"How is education supposed to make me feel smarter? Besides, every time I learn something new, it pushes some old stuff out of my brain. Remember when I took that home winemaking course, and I forgot how to drive?"

Goodbye Napoleon.

It's hard to see things come to end,
you'll be missed my watery friend.

From 1 to 10, you were an 11,
and now you're swimming in fishy heaven.

But though we may feel as though we're gonna cry,
I won't shed a tear, and i'll tell you why...

'cuz as your momma said, you had a good run,
So here's to you, Napoleon.
<3

CHAOS

I hate moving back home just because of all the unpacking and mess that I have to live with until I can find a place for all my stuff. Sigh, today was the first day to unpack and the mess is still here. I think it's going to last awhile.

My fish died today. As sad as I am that my fish is gone, it was even sadder that my niece was there when I found him. She learned today that everything dies and then you can never see them again, and she extremely sad for a long while. Her dad finally convinced her that we had to flush my fish down the toilet, but it took a long while. I am going to miss my poor fish.

Bye bye Napoleon.

A Slight Case of the Back-Home Blues.

feeling just a little blue,
ladies imma miss you two...


i know we'll only be apart for the summer.
but trust me, it'll still be a bummer.


this is what happens when you've got awesome friends,
love, sincerely, N.C.N. <3